Debonnie Barnes


Debonnie Barnes


Revival Is On Me

by Kelsey Kloster

My City Church has a reputation for having a lot of energy. The very first time I came to My City I remember walking in feeling like the coffee I had that morning wasn’t nearly as caffeinated as everyone else’s. I remember it so well. I sat in the back having no idea what I was getting myself into. Worship started and it was intense. You could feel the energy in the room. You could see the surrender in the people the message was touching. I didn’t know what brand of coffee they all had drank, but I left wanting it. 

I wanted it, but I didn’t immediately do anything about it. I still was living my party lifestyle. I still was out every weekend, not remembering what happened. I was so lost and craved wholeness. I wish I could tell you there was some crazy breaking point that caused me to come back to My City, but we’ll just call it a series of unfortunate events that lead me back to that highly caffeinated church. 


Seriously.. is it even safe that we drink this stuff?

I don’t like to put a timeline on my walk with God because it’s honestly been more like a rollercoaster ride (praise God for His Grace). But the beginning of this year is when I started diving into God’s Word and actively pursuing a relationship with HIm. I honestly can’t say that I was healed. I was actively seeking relationship with God, but I still was holding onto so many areas of my life. The biggest area definitely being my drinking lifestyle. I just thought that I could get drunk as long as I made it to church the next day. I mean I was reading my Bible everyday, learning so much about God, wasn’t that enough?

”The Holy Spirit is our partner who comes alongside us to bring us to the next level.” - Pastor Jesse Norman

Acts 1:8
But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria and to the ends of the earth.

Let’s get really real about it. Alcohol was a big problem for me. It was one of the biggest things I was not ready to surrender to God even after I started actively seeking God. I could not do that on my own free will. 

Remember that series of unfortunate events? Well, the last unfortunate event wasn’t some crazy eye opening come to Jesus moment.. But it was all I needed to do just that. Come to Jesus. But this time was different. I was fed up. I didn’t want to be drunk anymore. I didn’t want this lifestyle anymore. So I completely, totally surrendered it. I asked God to take it and I know now that the difference between this and all the other unfortunate events was the Holy Spirit

Before I surrendered my entire life to God I pictured the Holy Spirit differently. I used to think it’d be this warm fuzzy feeling. I used to think being full in the Holy Spirit meant you’d never really struggle with sin. Honestly looking back I thought it was like this inward glow that deflected everything Satan threw your way. Oh wow, have I realized that’s not the case.

This week while talking about who the Holy Spirit is, Pastor Jesse explained that the Holy Spirit looks different for everyone. The Holy Spirit doesn’t operate the same way for everyone. 

The Holy Spirit does not operate in ritual. Don’t operate in ritual or you’ll operate in the flesh.
— Pastor Jesse Norman

To me that means that the Holy Spirit to you moves differently than the Holy Spirit in me. Not everyone needs the Holy Spirit to stop being drunk. Not everyone feels the Holy Spirit in the same way.

Don’t let experience feed philosophy, build theology off of the Bible, not experience.
— Pastor Jesse Norman

The reality check that I had was that when the Holy Spirit starts to enter your life, so will the fruits of the Spirit. People get so mixed up and in their head about what the Holy Spirit is supposed to look like, but the Holy Spirit is so much more natural than we make it out to be. It doesn’t have to be weird and uncomfortable. It can be as simple as a breath of air. The Holy Spirit is like the wind in our sails.

John 20:21-22

Again he said, “Peace be with you. As the Father has sent me, so I am sending you.” Then he breathed on them and said, “Receive the Holy Spirit.”

As Christians, we’re all in a boat. Some people are sitting on a boat with no wind in their sails. We need the Holy Spirit in our lives to move or grow or level up in our faith. 

Okay so I know what you’re thinking.. “But as a christian don’t I already have the Holy Spirit?” Yes, you can’t be sanctified without it! But by definition, the Holy Spirit comes to take us to the next level.

The first level is Salvation, then the Holy Spirit gives you the POWER to go farther in your faith. The example used for this is a Father. Just as a father could leave his child with nothing but his DNA, this is what God leaving us without the Holy Spirit would look like. God is a good good Father. He didn’t want to leave us with nothing but His DNA, so He gave us the Holy Spirit to guide us

The Holy Spirit comes on us to empower the life of Christ in us.
— Pastor Jesse Norman

Next level faith can come in a way that freaks many people out. Let’s just be real, people think speaking in tongues is weird. And let’s be completely real, IT’S NOT.

Speaking in tongues is detaching your tongue from your brain and connecting it to your spirit.
— Pastor Jesse Norman

Boom. So simple.

Now if you’re anything like me you’re going to try to complicate it. So I’m going to stop you right now. It’s as simple as just letting God take complete control and focusing on Him. Focus on God, and let the spirit guide your mouth. It’s something that we can practice as we grow deeper in who God is through the Holy Spirit. 

If a man can control his tongue he can control his whole body.
— Pastor Jesse Norman

All this being said, the Holy Spirit coming upon us will look different from person to person. For me, I feel like it looks like what Pastor Jesse said so fittingly.

New wine.

For me, I constantly feel overwhelmingly “drunk” in God’s Love when I’m walking with the Holy Spirit. But with the Holy Spirit, I kicked my drinking habit and switched to that crazy Christian coffee.